I have a pain in my soul. I find it so bad I cannot lay, I cannot breathe normally. I feel guilty. I am scared. I am petrified that somebody will leave me. I am..

Am I?

I would have everything if not for this disease. 

I cannot find peace.

I cannot find peace. 

I cannot find peace. 

The emotions. 

I trust only them. 

And I should not. 

Tired

I am very tired. Of the emotions. Of these constant ups and downs. Of eating and eating and eating. I started overeating again. It's just really, really bad news. I am tired of not being able to do anything sometimes. I am tired of not being in control of my body and my emotions. I am tired of thinking. I am tired of people who don't understand me. I am tired of people in general. I am tired of this city. I am tired of

Everything now

But emotions are my number one. 

Fuck u, emotions.